Sunday, 30 November 2014

Braces removal

Okay so I am finally getting around to this post! Here is how my exciting day went! I had to get two more adjustments before I got my braces off, so I was at the first one. I was a little frustrated because I had come off of a night shift and had to wait two hours before my appointment. While I was waiting I was told my hygenists was running late with her appointments so she would be an additional 45 minutes before she could see me. At this point I was just plain grumpy, all I wanted to do was sleep. 

Finally when they called my name I went and sat in the chair and she started working on my teeth. She asked how my day was and I jokingly said "it would be better if you took my braces off" after having them on for what felt like a life time I was just fed up with looking at them I just wanted them off. I wanted to look and feel like a normal human being. She just laughed and said "not gonna happen" the orthodontist came over and the hygenists told him I wanted to know if I could have my braces off (I guess she took me seriously) to which he as well laughed and stated "not today" although I was completely joking I was slightly saddened by being turned down. He looked at my teeth and said "after today they can come off at any time" and then got up and walked off. About 10 minutes later he came back and said "I have found an opening in today's schedule and we can take your braces off at noon!" I suddenly was no longer tired I was so excited I couldn't contain it! And then I realized I wasn't wearing make up. Oh crap. I had everything planned out for my reveal of my new face and now I ruined it!

They bonded the inner bands to the top and bottom, what an awful experience. They really take their time putting them on. I know its a teadious process of ending the wire but jeesh my jaw was exhausted and my tongue was so dry. But finally they were on and they felt so weird. That fresh glue feeling, yuck!

So I sat in another chair and prepared myself for the pain of removing them! They had repositioned a couple brackets after surgery and popping them off has hurt a lot so I knew I was in for some pain. To my surprise they popped off like nothing, she had them off before I even knew what was happening. Then she polished my teeth, at this point the hygenists were all swarmed around me giggling with excitement. We had all gone through this together like a family and we were all excited! 

Then it was time for my big moment. My orthodontist grabbed my hand and put me infront of the mirror and I just couldn't handle it, I could not open my mouth! He kept saying SMILE and for the life of me I couldn't look. I don't know if I was scared or nervous or what but it took me forever to finally uncover my mouth. The second I did the tears came flowing and before I knew it we were all crying. 

It is so hard to explain to anyone who hasn't gone through something like this what it feels like. For the first time in my 24 years of life I felt normal. I wanted to smile and not hide it. 

This whole experience has been completely life changing and I am so grateful to FINALLY be on the other side of it. I will never stop smiling!!

Saturday, 8 November 2014

SUPRISE! Braces are off!

I got an early Christmas present!!!! MY BRACES CAME OFF EARLY!!!!!!  I will give the full story a bit later for but now here is me!! 

Friday, 3 October 2014

I have another date!

So we all wait and wait wait to hear the words "you can book your surgery" and then we wait and wait and wait to hear the words "you're ready to get your braces off" WELL after taking a year and a half to be told I could have surgery I thought for sure I had another year and a half in braces. 

At my last appointment my orthodontist told me that it would be February when I would probably get my braces off. To me that was far too long, I am so tired of being 24 with braces! So I was at the orthodontist yesterday and he was looking at my teeth. Asking me to move my jaw this way and move my jaw that way, pondering and pondering. And then he said "let's get those braces off in December" I wanted to leap out of the chair and dance !! 


I have been so jealous watching everyone go trough this journey and come out brace free on the other side, get married and keep living their lives.. Well it's my turn ! And after all the pain and ups and downs of the past two years I must say, I think I deserve it haha. 

I will finally get my engagement pictures taken with my brace free teeth and I will not stop smiling for a second. Some times I look back at the pictures from when I was little and I used to smile so big and so much. As soon as my teeth started to come in crooked the smiling stopped and so did a lot of pictures. But that's no a problem anymore! The smiling is back :)

So I saw my surgeon who said everything looks great! And then right after I ran to my orthodontists. They put on a fighter power chain to close any gaps. They also shaved the bottoms of my teeth so that they are smooth and I don't have baby looking teeth. I am still wearing three Elastics which are a pain but I'll power through ! Ther than that I have one more appointment booked and then the braces come off! Woo!! 

Hope all is well :)

Thursday, 4 September 2014

Six months post op

We'll I am almost 6 months post op! First off I feel great and I smile every day :) I have zero numbness in my face which I am so happy about. Also I have no pain at all, just the occasional headache but those run in my family so I expect them haha. Life has been great since surgery! I barely think about the actual surgery however I am extremely tired of my braces and I am so ready for them to come off.

I had an adjustment about a week ago and I asked my orthodontist when they will be coming off. He told me not until probably February. So so far away :( but what can I do. Hopefully my teeth will move super fast and it will be sooner. I am not wearing power chains on both the top and the bottom and I have three elastics one on my left side and two on my right all in a triangle configuration. I don't feel my teeth move too much but I am sure they are. The look so straight to me.

Here are some update pictures, also some pictures I got from my orthodontist

Remember this girl? I sure don't!

Here I am! 

Monday, 14 July 2014

Almost 4 moths post op!

Some times I seriously cannot believe how fast time goes by. It's incredible! 

Jaw wise things are going really well, I see my surgeon in two days for a check up. I'm not necessarily numb anywhere anymore but when I touch my chin it still tingles a tiny bit and in a random small spot under my eye and on the tip of my nose. But I can tell the feeling will come back soon. I have had some pain on my left side of my jaw and random points, I'm sure it's just healing pain, I am not too concerned. I run my finger along my jaw line I can still feel where it was broken, I am not sure how long that takes to smooth itself out. I made the mistake of holding my dog while my fiancĂ© cut his nails and ended up getting smacked in the chin by my dogs head, wow did that ever hurt, it almost felt bruised for a day after. 

I am going to my orthodontist tomorrow for an adjustment. I really want to speed up the process and get these damn thigs off lol he seems to not mind going at a leisurely pace. I have not been as faithful wearing my elastics, I always start the day with them on and I always wear them when I sleep, but through out the day I tend to munch non stop and it's just so much work to put them on and off so much. 

Has anyone else noticed tht their skin breaks out a bunch after surgery?? Coming from a girl who always has decent skin and didn't really get too many pimples I have been breaking out like crazy since surgery. I am not impressed lol 

Life wise everything is amazing! :) hope all is well with my jaw surgery friends, hereare some update pictures 

Sunday, 15 June 2014

Life after jaw surgery

So I have to admit when I would read about bloggers going through this process and then they suddenly stop blogging I got so confused. I thought how could anyone go a day or week without thinking about jaw surgery or not go on their blog!? Well let me tell you my friends it happens. Maybe not right away but after surgery you stop obsessing about surgery and life just kinda goes back to normal! It's a very surreal feeling that's for sure. I still think about surgery all the time I just dont obsess over it like I was before, it's actually really nice.

My orthodontist said my braces should be able to come off by the end of the year but I'll believe that when I see it :p my next adjustment isn't for about a month or so. 

I haven't really had any pain with my jaw, no headaches either :) I am eating crunchy carrots daily without any problem! I still get many compliments and comments on how different I look. Everyone is scared to comment at first because they don't want to offend your old face but you can tell they like the new face better :p it's still me on the inside!

There is lots of wedding planning happening for both me and my two best friends who also just got engaged! The main thing to remember when it comes to surgery is that life goes on! Your world stops revolving around staring at evry movement that happens in your mouth and you actually SMILE and LAUGH with no hesitation or shame and it feels amazing!! Even with the braces. I want the world to see me smile now and that is a feeling I never thought I would feel. People notice the confidence change in you and you become more fun to be around. 

So my friends all of this pain and discomfort and emotions are all worth it, I promise!! 

Wednesday, 21 May 2014

8 Weeks post op! Oops thought I posted this

Hey everyone! I am eight weeks post op and wow does time ever fly when you're feeling good :) I am happy to report I have been pain free! I get random sharp pains now and then just from the nerves but it's not to bad. I have a habit of puckering my lips when I feel pain or weirdness, I don't even realize I'm doing it and I probably look so silly :p 

I saw my surgeon on Tuesday, everything went well. He is still very impressed with his work (which he should be!) he took a quick look at my bite and said come back in a month and that was it. 

Today I saw my orthodontist, I still can't get enough of the "oos" and "awes" i get when I see people I haven't seen in a while. This whole experience (post op anyways) has been a major confidence boost. I noticed that I still do things to hide my mouth and chin and I really have to train myself to stop since my face looks fine now :D they switched my upper wire and took out all the hooks (thank god) my teeth have definitely took a beating since surgery, they look so yellow and dingey I hate it. They removed my upper canine brackets and places them in a new position to tilt my roots. It felt weird to have an adjustment for the first time in forever. They kept resting their hands on my chin which is still super sensative, but I made it through. I am still in elastics, they are a trapezoid configuration, it think that's the right shape haha I am seeing movements in my teeth but I'm sure they know what they are doing. 

Life has been busy with the new house and all the renovations plus full time job! Hope all is well

Working hard on the new yard!

Wednesday, 30 April 2014

Day 44: 6 weeks post op

I am officially back to work! I am so glad I waited the full 6 weeks before going back , I definitely did not feel well enough to go back until about the 5-6 week mark. I still have sharp shooting pains in my face from my nerves regenerating but my surgeon said that will go away. I have had to do a lot of explaining and talking about my surgery. Nothing but positive things were said by my co workers. I got a lot of "you look so much younger!" Again and a lot of "you looked good before but you look even better now" same things I have been hearing and I love all of it! For the first time I don't feel ugly, and it is such an amazing feeling.

I also went to see my surgeon for my 6 weeks post op appointment. As usual it was quick, he took a peak around my mouth, asked if I had any concerns. I talked with him about my nausea that I have been getting. I noticed since surgery I am much more sensative to motion sickness even when I am driving. My surgeon said he has never heard of that and hopefully it will get better. He switched me to weaker elastics they have a teddy bear on the package. They feel so good because they aren't yanking my jaw jaw closed. 

I am still back to normal with eating. I eat anything and everything, even crunchy things! 

I hope all is well :)

Thursday, 24 April 2014

Jaw surgery problems

although there were many many frustrating things through out all of this, one of the most frustrating things is when people assume I had this done for cosmetic reasons. It is SOO annoying when people say things to me such as "why are you doing this you look fine" "you're too young for plastic surgery" do they honestly think that I would break my face in three different places just to look a little better?? No! I did all of this because I had to. I couldn't chew, or talk normal, I was constantly in pain from my TMJD, and I couldn't smile. I'm not one of those girls who is blessed with beautiful teeth or a perfect bite. I had to suffer throughout my whole life with this problem. Looking back at my family picture and pictures from when I was a kid I was never smiling because I was so self conscious. I was picked on and made fun of even in my adult years. 

This isn't something I chose to go through. Who would want to go through months of a swollen face, being unable to talk and eat, constant nausea and pain and having to rely on everyone to do things for you. I'm sorry for all of this ranting but this drives me insane! No matter how many times I explain to people that it wasn't really by choice I had to have this done people still think that I did this for vain reasons. 

The worst is my fiancĂ©s family. Even NOW they still say " I liked the way you were before to I don't know why you would put yourselves through that" I want to scream at them. I just endured the hardest 5 weeks ever and they think it was for fun. 

Okay I'm done ranting. I just wish people wouldn't be so judgmental when they hve no idea what they are saying. Just be supportive even if you don't understand it. Don't let anyone make you feel bad for having this surgery. You are making your future better. You are preventing arthritis in your joints and TMJ pain. You are helping yourself to chew and talk and smile. Own it. Don't let people feel guilty. They couldn't possibly understand what we have been through.

Five weeks post op pictures

Wednesday, 23 April 2014

Day 37

Hey everyone!! I hope everyone had a wonderful Easter! I went back home for a week and it was so wonderful! I did so much chewing and talking I almost felt normal haha. I saw all of my family, a lot of them didn't recognize me at first and everyone told me that I look so so different. Only positive comments about it though. I got a lot of "you look so much younger" and "your face looks so much more balanced" 

I forgot to write a post about my orthodontist appointment last week. It was exciting all of the hygenists came over screaming looking at my face and my ring telling me how nice I looked and how happy they were for me. I felt so special. My dad came with me which was cool he got to see everything I do every 4-6 weeks haha no adjustments were done just a lot of looking and talking. I have an appointment for the end of May for my first adjustment.

Swelling and Stiffness : I still notice some swelling in my cheeks right beside my nostrils. However not really many people can notice it, I know that it will go away slowly. It still makes me feel like I'm from whoville haha my lips are still stiff and even though I try to move them lots it's still hard. They loosen up by the end of the day but are always so stiff in the morning. I can open my mouth almost two fingers now 

Pain: I haven't taken any pain meds in weeks. The only pain I have been experiencing is in the evening after a day of talking and chewing my face is sore and super tingly. Also I have been having shooting muscle spasm type pains throughout the day that only last a second or so. I don't feel the need to take any pain meds. 

Eating: I pretty much eat anything and everything minus anything hard or crunchy. I am still learning to chew and I bite my lip and cheeks a lot but what can ya do. I cut everything up small and chew slowly. Also, Easter candy just melts in your mouth so.. Jaw surgery win lol let's just say I'm having no problem getting my weight back.

Energy: I have all my energy back, I kicked ass in the Easter egg hunt and stayed up until 2am most nights while I was home. I also started jogging again. The first time was a little scary. I kept thinking screws please don't fall out lol but it went great! I definitely lost my endurance but I will get it back.

Hope all is well!

Tuesday, 15 April 2014

4 weeks post op: before and after

It's crazy how much has changed! I look so different but I still see myself in my face. I get a lot of "you look so much younger!" Which I don't mind :) I feel like I look much more femanine and my face is much more balanced. 

Day 28: four weeks post op!

 Four weeks!! I cannot believe it, it is so crazy to even think about. I feel like from now on progress is rather slow. I still feel swollen but it goes down really slowly. It's hardly noticeable I'm sure but it's there. I'm also breaking out beside my nose, I have never broken out there. Also I'm breaking out on my chin. I have never really been prone to acne but this surgery has given my all the worst kinds of skin. It's dry and peeling, yet oily, red and itchy and breaking out. I hope that goes away.

Eating is still a daily challenge. Chewing is very every slow and it takes a lot of energy. I tend to chew only one meal a day and the rest I choose liquids because it's painful.

I saw my surgeon today for my four week post op appointment. I was in with him for a total of 2 minutes, he looked at my teeth, marveled his work (which he should) and then I was out. No changes with my elastics and I go back in two weeks. I can't wait to be rid of these painful strong elastics, they put so much pressure on my teeth it hurts.

I see my orthodontist tomorrow for a check up, I'll update again. Hope all is well!

Friday, 11 April 2014

Day 25

I am slowly getting back to normal! I am not back to work just yet, I have two more weeks off and I'm so glad I do. My face is still pretty stiff and doesn't move normal when I talk. To avoid the after surgery blues I have gotten my butt out of bed at a decent time every morning and go for an hour and a half walk. It honestly starts my day right and I feel way better throughout the day. I have my energy back. I haven't started jogging again, I have to ask my surgeon when I can do that. I am so scared I'm going to shake my screws loose haha. Today after my long walk I put together our new vanity for our bathroom and then I raked our new yard and cleaned up all of the old leaves and crud that fell from the trees, it took forever! 

I am still relearning how to chew. Today I ventured into vegetarian sushi! I had to cut everything up really small and chewed each piece up and down slowly. Took me forever but I did it! Most of my meals are blended. I have blended fruit for breakfast, usually blended veggies for lunch and soup for dinner. If I feel like treating myself I have ice cream! I made home made banana bread and I warmed it up so it was mushy it was so good :) 

I still have swelling, I am so ready for it to be gone, from the side you can barely see it but from the front you can still see my little chubby cheeks. I want the swelling and stiffness to be done and over with. 

Some of my stitches have fallen out but I can feel some starting to come out. I don't want to poke around or pull any. I am able to brush my teeth still using a baby tooth brush. I can open my mouth just over one fingers worth, not quite two fingers. 

I don't have any pain anymore. I just have a TON of tingling in my face it drives me crazy. I know it's a good sign but goodness does it ever annoy me. The worst sensation is tickling in my nose. It's like having someone tickle your nose and there is no way to itch it. 

Over all I am really happy with the results. Today my boyfriend snuck a picture of my profile and when I looked at it I wanted to cry. For the first time in my life I actually liked the way I looked from the side. This whole process is hard and overwhelming and emotional but I promise it is worth it! For anyone who is just starting this just stick with it, you will be so happy you did!

Blended strawberries and mango!

Saturday, 5 April 2014

Day 21: three weeks post op

Well it has been three weeks since double jaw surgery and genioplasty. Some times it feels like a life time ago and some times it feels like just yesterday. 

Swelling: swelling I find hasn't changed much. Some times I have more swelling and some times it looks like very little swelling. There is definitly swelling remaining in my cheeks and chin.

Numbness: I am still numb in my chin, lips and beside my nose. It tingles like crazy which is annoying but good because that means feelings coming back. If anything touches my chin it tingles like mad and drives me crazy. I also have burning in my lips. If I touch beside my nose it feels like my fingers are  there when they're not. It's just very annoying and so so so uncomfortable. 

Pain: I get soreness in my joints when I open my mouth for the first time in the morning. Also, by the end of the day my jaws are so sore from talking.

Eating: I am on a soft diet still. I haven't started chewing yet, the idea still makes me feel awful, my jaws just don't move well yet. I attempted to chew once and the food just gets stuck in my cheeks and it takes forever to get it out. Another awful thing is that I keep biting my lips and it hurts so bad to the point where they bleed. I have mainly been eating soups, yogurt, mashed fruit, mashed sweet potato, oatmeal and blended chili. I can't wait to go back to my vegan diet. My surgeon insists that I eat yogurt with a probiotic in it. I still have maintained a solid vegetarian diet.

I am very tired and annoyed of my face. It's constantly tingling and uncomfortable and I just want to be normal again. It is still so stiff no matter how much I do my lip and facial exercises and how much i talk. Yes I'm complaining and I know I should be super excited I'm healing but it's hard. I think all jaw surgery patients get to this point where they are annoyed and fed up. I like the results and I'm happy with how my face is looking, I just can't wait to see the actual end result because the surgeon said my face is still swollen and my looks will continue to change. It's hard when you have to wait so long to see the results. 

I can open my mouth about the size of one finger. At first I was using a gelato spoon I picked up it is perfectly flat so it fit in my mouth when I could barely open it. I have graduated to a baby spoon yay!

Tuesday, 1 April 2014

Two weeks!

Technically two weeks was yesterday but it was a busy day and I didn't have time to post. 

Doctors appointment: I had to see my regular doctor to get my blood checked since my platelets were low before surgery. I got the results today and my platelets are back to normal, however, my iron is low. It's probably because of surgery and my diet being kind of off. I have to start taking an iron supplement and recheck my blood after three months. My doctor didn't recognize me when I came in! 

Surgeon appointment: today I had my two week post op appointment. Everything looks really good! My surgeon kept looking at my bite saying "wow, your bite is perfect!" He told me the measurements but there was like 5 different measurements for the top jaw and 5 more for the bottom jaw and a few more for my chin. I was so confused. He did so many pushing, pulling, twisting and shaving. Whatever he did it looks great and I'm so happy with the results. He said I have a bit of swelling still so my looks will change more. He put one elastic on each side in a box configuration and I can take them off to eat. He also took the two front stitches out. I go back in two weeks. 

Swelling: today I woke up with my lips a little more swollen than normal, I'm not sure why. My incision along the top gums is still sore. The swelling doesn't seem to change much day to day. I still have swelling in my chin, my cheeks and kind of all over. 

Energy: my energy is pretty much back to normal. I spent an entire day shopping yesterday, it was fun! By the end of the day I was tired, but that is normal. However all the talking really wears me out. 

Diet: I attempted to go to an ice cream shop with my aunt yesterday. I had them blend my ice cream into a shake and I used a small spoon to put it into my mouth using a compact mirror. It was a funny sight. Today I got the OK for a soft food diet. I ran home in excitement, whipped my bands off and made mashed potatoes. I went to open my mouth to shove them in and it was not as easy as I planned. My mouth barely opens and I can only fit a tiny amount of food at a time. It took me a half an hour to eat a quarter of a sweet potato and some mashed avocado. 

When I went to put the bands back on it took me forever. They are so tight and hard to get on.