Sunday, 22 December 2013

Ortho visit

Hey all! I went and had my adjustment on tuesday of last week and it went well :) I asked my  orthodontist if I am still going to be ready for march and he said most likely yes I will be ready! So he took some molds of my teeth to send to the surgeon to get the okay that we are just about there. In January the surgeons office will phone my orthodontist and ask if I am ready, if Dr M says yes then the surgeons office will call me and we will pick a date! I am just praying and praying that everything goes as planned, I am so excited. There have been so many bloggers who have had their surgery date in their head and then it doesnt work out and things get pushed back and I am so scared that will happen to me, I have had my braces almost a year and a half at the time of surgery and I think that is long enough.
I had my top wire changed to a TMA wire, they said that  should expand my top teeth. However when they put the wire on they put a little kink in it to try to rotate my tooth, but in doing so it brought the tooth too far forward. So that tooth that was stuck way behind is now ahead of the others. I wanted to  call and ask to see if that was supposed to happen but I didn't because I know that he is a wonderful orthodontist and I'm sure he knows what he is doing.

As for my bottom teeth, the wire was changed and they put a power chain across all of the bottom teeth to tighten any spaces that may be there. I am still wearing my elastics as I was before and my underbite is coming along nicely.

I hope everyone has an amazing Christmas and holidays! All I want for Christmas is my jaw surgery eeek !

Tuesday, 26 November 2013

Progress !

I went to the orthodontist for an adjustment yesterday (they feel so close together now which is AMAZING) and I honestly cannot believe how much that tooth has moved and how fast it went!

I have good news!! I HAVE A VISIBLE UNDER BITE! wahooooo finally the under bite is here! Happy day :)I had a bit of a clumsy hygienist who kept slipping and stabbing me with the tools, I tried to play it off like I was fine, but man did it ever hurt. She put pressure on my tooth and I winced in pain, she then said "I realise that tooth is really tender but, you're going to feel extreme pain in a minute" she wasn't kidding. She put so much pressure on that tooth my eyes were watering. Normally I can suck it up but when a tooth is already tender and then someone puts extreme pressure on it, jeeeze. My orthodontist has been amazing lately, he told me my progress is fantastic and that we are still good to go for March! (Fingers crossed) I have been in so much pain yesterday and today. I have been a big baby, layed in bed and watched movies with my boyfriend all night and drank tea.

It feels really nice to have my teeth almost straight. I don't look like I have a giant gap in the front anymore, just a wee little one. I have been smiling a lot today, it feels amazing to see fast progress. Mind you I am still so green with envy with all the people who are done with their surgery. I love seeing that around the one month mark people start to post less and less. This means that life is getting back to normal and jaw surgery isn't flooding their mind with anxiety.

Here are some pictures of the progress and a picture of photobooth fun!
this is my bite fully closed, right teeth (left in the picture) still dont touch



They are almost straight!!! ps sorry about the spinach, probably should have brushed a little better before pictures

this what they looked like before they moved that tooth forward

Tuesday, 5 November 2013

Attempt #2

I had another adjustment today, just had my elastics changed and they were going to tighten my ligature pulling that tooth forward, but it wasn't working at all. My tooth is staying put and not moving for me. How rude right? So they thought they would try something else. So now I have two wires on my braces, my regular stainless steel square wire, and now a weaker more flexible wire that goes from my canine to that tiny tooth behind, to my big front tooth. Also they tied a wire around it that is supposed to help pull the tooth forward as well. The hygienist and orthodontist assured me this time it will work, so here's hoping!

It was a rather funny appointment, there were so many wires and elastics in my mouth that my hygienist felt as though she couldn't handle it on her own. So I had two hygienists and my orthodontist with their hands in my mouth and their faces an inch from mine. It is a bit tender now, not too bad though. Dr M told me to keep my position for the end of March for surgery. My next appointment will be on November 25th (I am loving these appointments that are close together) I managed to squeeze one more appointment in before Christmas on December 17th before the office closes for the holidays and it becomes impossible to get an appointment in January.

I am still wearing my elastics that are pulling my bottom teeth and jaw forward. My bite has really opened up and my under bite is starting to show itself. FINALLY! Dr M said that once my teeth are straight they will really focus on the under bite coming through.

Wednesday, 16 October 2013

x rays

adjustment and meeting with my orthodontist

Hey all!

Happy to report this appointment well splendid :D
My first appointment was to have my adjustment. They put a heavier wire on the bottom, I am pretty sure she said a 17 25 on the bottom and on the top I still have my 16 22. They are both stainless steel square wires and they may be the wires I wear for surgery. They also put a curve in the bottom wire to try to slant the bottom teeth outward. On the top they put a ligature from my little tooth behind and hooked it on to the archwire to try to pull it forward. Also, Dr M said that he would like to see me more often, I am now booked to go in every three weeks (probably because I keep bugging him that I want this done in March) he sounds doubt full that I will be ready but he said he will try his best. It is hard when my teeth were SO crooked to begin with, most jaw surgery patients had braces on when they were younger and their teeth are already straight.

New elastics :)
I was also given elastics to wear. They are the "gorilla" green medium elastics that go from my bottom second molar to my top canines to try to bring out my underbite. Needless to say my teeth and head are throbbing and I have an eight hour shift to get through, waaaa. the elastics look so off centre because my midlines do not line up at all. I am to wear them as much as possible, only taking them out to eat and clean my teeth. I remember when I had elastics before I would wake up with my mouth feeling so tight, we shall see how this goes :P 

As of right now the only teeth that touch are the teeth on my left side.

My chin really goes to left side (right side in the pictures) After all the adjustments were done (I went with purple elastics by the way, thought it was time for a change) I had my appointment with Dr. M to ask him all the questions that I had at the last appointment. He assured me that he would work as hard as he could so my surgery will hopefully be in March/April, he went on and on about how he wants everything to be perfect before the surgery so the chances of me relapsing are slim, which I can appreciate. I am praying that little tooth just zooms up quickly, I feel like once that is moved up things will be just about ready.

Hope all my Canadian friends had a good thanksgiving weekend!

Wednesday, 25 September 2013


I have been wondering lately why I havent been able to see an under bite with my teeth. My bottom molars are way ahead of my top molars but when you look at my teeth you dont see an underbite. When I first started this process my midline was off one tooth however it was the opposite of what it is now. My top teeth were over one tooth to the left and my bottom teeth one tooth to the right (picture is mirrored so it would be the opposite)

Now my teeth are the opposite. My bottom teeth and jaw shift towards the left and my top teeth shift towards the right (again picture is mirrored) However, if I line up my midlines my under bite becomes really noticeable as well as my open bite! The only teeth that touch are my left molars and thats it! So weird

Waterpik and weddings

Hey All!

Barn wedding!
So my little tooth way behind has moved over as much as its going to move over I think, I wish I could go back to my orthodontist now and ask him to start moving it forward. Wouldn't that be nice? If only life was that simple! My next appointment is in approximately three weeks and luckily I will get to sit and have a good talk with Dr. M and ask everything I want to ask him.  

Found at costco
Note to self, TMJD + singing and dancing all night at a wedding = horrid pains the next day. However, totally worth it! I went to my cousins wedding and spent the entire night eating, talking and singing very loudly which in turn caused my jaws to become soo angry the next day. (It was a country barn wedding, hence the boots)

I also went to costco and may or may not have bought the entire store. I swear that place hypnotises you to make you think you need everything in large quantities. Anywho I found a waterpik that comes with a normal waterpik with all the attachments AND A LID. Oh my was I ever excited that it had a lid! Nothing bothers me more about the waterpik my mom got me than the fact that it is just an open container of water letting all the gross bathroom bacteria float around in it. It also came with a travel size waterpik!! How amazing is that!? I can bring it to work with me or when I go to the cottage or back home to the country. The attachments it came with were a tooth brush, braces cleaner, some sort of pik, two standard sprayers, one that had three bristles attached to it and I believe that's it. But it was only 70$ for all of that. I was amazed, they are so expensive in Canada. Also, this one has a lower setting then my current one. The one I have now literally just rockets out of the thing and you cant put it any lower. The new one actually has a setting that is gentle haha. My teeth have never felt so smooth..well minus the metal.  

Here is how I currently look, sorry the picture looks like I am growing facial hair, I used the front facing Iphone camera which isnt the best.

My top canine is touching the bottom tooth and it feels awful

Hope all is well my blogger friends!

Thursday, 12 September 2013

Wasn't expecting that

As I posted my last update my orthodontist phoned me. I was all fired up from todays adjustments and venting through that post I was shocked that I got a phone call from him. He said that he was on his way home and he couldnt help but feel terrible for the way he rushed me. He apologise and said that he was sorry if he made me feel unimportant. Unfortunately the damage is done and I already feel like poop but honestly it meant a lot that he called just to apologise. Some people will surprise ya!

Adjustment #7 and Frustrations

I was really hoping that this post would be a happy one but unfortunately that isnt the case. In one of my last posts I had said that it was my worst adjustment ever, however, this one definitely tops it. I was treated horribly! I was so excited to have my adjustment, finally my orthodontist was going to be there and I had so many questions to ask since I hadn't seen him in two or three appointments.

I had the sweetest hygenist who used to be a nurse so we had lots to talk about and she told me so many stories of when she worked in the oporating room. I told her that I had a lot of questions for Dr. M so she called him over to look at my teeth. Before even sitting down he came over to us and told the hygenist to give him her chair. He sat down without even saying hi to me and told me to open my mouth. He began telling the hygenist what he wanted done and all that. She mentioned that I had a few questions and of course he huffed and puffed and said well I have a lot of people to see today. He made me feel like I was being so annoying. I asked him when he thought I would be ready for surgery and he looked at me like I was a complete idiot. And he huffed and puffed some more he's like we have a lot of work left, completely ignored my question and then started talking to the hygenist. So she asked him, when should she plan for surgery? And he said "Probably march/april" I went to say something else and he cut me off said "I have to go I have people to see" and left. I could feel my face get hot and tears start to come and I just started to cry.

I know I'm being an emotional girl but he does understand how hard this process is. Everyday I avoid looking in the mirror, I try on a thousand different outfits and hate how they all look on me ,not because of my body but because of my face. I have people staring at my teeth asking why my chin and jaw are so huge. I am constantly having pain in my jaws, head, neck and shoulders. My life is on complete hold because of this. It is the hardest thing ever to go through and he just completely blew me off like I was being completely unreasonable asking when I can have this done and over with.

The hygenist felt so bad she hugged me and appologised for his behaviour. My orthodontist has been nothing but amazing and sweet in the past I was horrified when this happened. I left and called my boyfriend and just started bawling because I felt so stupid.

Not too much was done to my teeth, I have the same wires on she said that these may be my surgery wires, they are the stainless steel ones. They put a bracket on to my tooth that is far behind and attatched a power chain going from that tooth to my canine to try to pull it over so that they can pull it up.

To make it worse I went to make my next appointment and she tried to book me 8 WEEKS from now. are you kidding me??? I looked at her and said "Honestly?? you dont have anything sooner??" she looked and found an oppening on October 16th thank god. I really hope my next appointment is better than this one, I just feel defeted today and it sucks. Also, the same day the hygenist booked a half an hour appointment with my ortho so that I can sit down and ask him the questions that need to be asked (she was awesome)

Sorry for a long depressing post I just needed to vent it all out.
Hope everyone is having an amazing day today!

The power chain that they hooked to pull my tooth straight so it could be pulled forward easier

Tuesday, 10 September 2013

Doctors appointment (again)

I went in to see my doctor for my yearly physical. While I was there I talked to her again about the swollen lymph node that is right by my TMJ on my left side. She told me that my blood work came back all good and that it is most likely swelling from the braces and because of all the tension I am experiencing in that side of my face, and also because my jaw goes off to the left side. She told me that I should be getting massage therapy for my TMJ (yes please!) and to apply heat and to try taking Alieve. So I am going to try all of that and see how it works. I noticed that the more stressed that I become, the more I can feel the tension in my jaw, neck and shoulders and it is horrid.

So all I have to do is schedule my massage and pray that my benefits cover it. As a nurse you would think we would have aweseome benefits that cover everything especially massages! But no, our benefits are terrible and they cover nothing :( saaaad.

Orthodintist appointment in T minus 2 days!
anywho, hope everyone is well :)

Sunday, 8 September 2013

Should I be worried?

I have this lump in my neck, right below my left ear and I first felt it about a year ago, maybe a little less. I went to the doctors to have it checked out because I was terrified I had cancer or a tumor or something awful. (curse of being a nurse is that you over think small things related to health) So they did blood work, and felt around, and did ultra sounds. And they just kinda shrugged and said it's probably nothing.

My mom had a lump in the same spot, but she told me hers was just her muscle becoming inflamed from her TMJD and once she has a massage it goes away. Mine isnt going away and it hurts. It feels like pressure that gets pinched when I move my jaw, which is ALL the time. If I lean my head to the right it kinda sinks in so it's not sticking out and its less painful.

I am getting really worried that it's something more serious :( I have a doctors appointment on tuesday and if my doctor doesnt look in to it more then I am going to find a second oppinion because it is making me crazy

I dont know what to do :(

Monday, 2 September 2013

Birthday Celebrations and a Trip to the Doctors

It was my birthday yesterday wahoo!! I am officially a 23 year old in braces! I was really impacted by +Natasha Sephton-Pike 's post on her birthday where she said that it will be her last birthday with the face that she currently has. And I couldn't help but think the same on my birthday. I am hoping by my next birthday I will have the face that I was always meant to have, the face that when I look at it in the mirror I will think "Hey, I like the way that looks" Thank goodness my boyfriend took me away for a mini getaway on the weekend to take my mind off of my jaw and my teeth for a little while. It was so much fun, we went out for dinner, a walk along the water, glow in the dark mini golf and to a drive in movie! I couldn't have asked for a better time! Not to mention he went through the trouble of researching restaurants that are vegan friendly and got me a vegan birthday cake! Ten gold stars for this guy :P

In other news in my life I took a trip to the doctors. Working at the hospital as a nurse can be very stressful. Stress tends to make my jaw pain so much worse. So the majority of my nights/breaks you can find my with my heating bad on my face, and in this hot weather, it is not fun. At my doctors appointment to talk to my doctor about a swollen gland that is right below my left ear between my jaw and neck that I found a while back. My jaw tends to pinch the gland when I chew and it causes so much pressure to the point where the pain shoots down my neck and up into my head causing horrible headaches. The doctor sent me for some blood work (ugh needles) and felt around a bit and kind of shrugged it off and said "we will keep and eye on it" so until we can figure out a temporary solution, I will have this heating pad glued to my face.

My teeth are still driving me crazy, It hurts to chew and when I'm really chewing my teeth sometimes grind and it is the worst feeling, they are almost sitting directly on top of each other. Another thing that drives me insane is when I wake up with my mouth wide open in the night because I cant breath through my nose properly and I spend ten minutes trying to moisten my mouth and get that awful taste out. I cant wait to see what the surgeon does with this crazy under bite, open bite and cross bite. He will definitely has his hands full!

Ten more days until my next orthodontist appointment, it cant come fast enough !!

I get to share my birthday with this handsome fella (His is today!)

First time at the drive in movies :)

My birthday cake !! (vegan of course)

Our cute hotel room and glow in the dark mini golf!

Tuesday, 20 August 2013

Squeeky Clean!

It's the best feeling after having your teeth cleaned and polished, but its the worst during. The poking, pulling and vibrations make me feel so queezy! But is so worth it when you feel how clean your mouth is. After my cleaning I thought it was time to grab a new tooth brush and some more handy dandy cleaning tools. YAY for clean teeth!!! :)

I noticed that my chin goes off to the right. Am I being crazy or does it actually look like my chin is pointing to the right?? I am hoping that when I meet with my orthodontist or my surgeon that I can ask if they will fix that during surgery. Is it just me or do all jaw surgery patients sit there and stare at each feature on their face point out whats wrong?? Haha I hope that stops.

I bring a little travel kit with me wherever I go, just so I can brush my teeth after eating and not have to sit for twenty minutes picking every little thing out of my braced with my tongue. Especially since I eat spinach like its going out of style. So I bought a mini mouth wash to put in my travel kit. The higenist told me to get one that is alcohol free since it will dry out my tissues, but they didnt have one in a travel size so I got a regular one with alcohol.. ahh well :P

Hope all is well with my braced friends!

Monday, 19 August 2013

One of those days

So today is one of those days where I want to scream at my teeth and say HURRY UP. It feels like my appointments are getting farther and farther apart. The jealousy monster has taken over after seeing everyone going through recovery and I just want it to be my turn. I am so happy for everyone who has had their surgery and are able to look in the mirror and think "Hey, I like what I see" And i know that we will all get there at some point. Looking back on how my teeth looked in the beginning, the transformation already is just incredible, but I am being greedy and I want the whole thing completed.

As strange as it sounds, I am looking forward to being off work for a month and being taken
Its hard to believe that is the same smile, the difference is incredible! The gap where that tooth was pulled is almost completely closed, there is about 1mm left to go, but it seems as though there is enough room for that tooth to come forward. You can really see how off my midline is in the second picture, under my nose is a tooth instead of the midline of my teeth, I am not sure if my jaw will be rotated in surgery or what they will do to make that centered. So I am praying when I'm in next (September 11th) that they will hook that tooth up and pull it forward. And hopefully next time I am in they can give me more of an idea or guesstimate when I will be ready or close!

Sunday, 28 July 2013

Mama bear

So I wasn't entirely sure when or if I was going to talk about this, but lately it's been something that hasnt left my brain and I feel like I need to just let it out. One of my biggest fears about recovery isnt how I will look or how long it will take or any of those normal worries. My biggest fear is not having my mom to take care of me. The original plan was for my mom to move in with my boyfriend and I for a month and take care of me during my recovery so that my boyfriend wouldnt have to take time off. Normally the thought of a parent moving in would terrify someone, but my mom is my best friend and I couldnt have been more excited.

When I had my wisdom teeth out, I called my mom at 5am begging her to come take care of me because I felt so sick and awful and sometimes you just need your mom to give you a hug and make you some tea. She drove the three and a half hours to come be with me and slept on a tiny love seat for three days. She gave me all my meds, made me soup and tea and ran to the store whenever I needed anything. She was wonderful and I honestly wouldnt have made it through that week without her. Me + anasteisia = nausea sooo much nausea. The nausea was so bad to the point I layed on the floor in the elevator on the way home haha my boyfriend had to pick me up and carry me.

Since my wisdom teeth came out in October, a lot has changed. I got a call in the middle of the night in January from my aunt telling me that my mom had a brain anyuerism and she was being rushed to the hospital for emergency brain surgery. I woke my boyfriend and we rushed as quickly as we could to the hospital that was three hours away. My mom pulled through the surgery however she wasnt the same after what had happened. She had a stroke that caused her to be completely blind, so when I went to see her, she couldnt see me. She couldnt feed herself so I had to feed her. I didnt mind, she had done this for me many times in my life. She was so confused and had no idea the things she was saying. It hurt a lot to see my mom, my rock, so completely helpless.

I stayed in a hotel that night near the hospital, by the time we got to the hotel the hospital called us back saying that she had taken a turn for the worst. I was shocked, I thought that we had pulled through the worst. They had taken her in for another brain surgery, this time when she came out she wasnt awake. They had her on life support and she couldnt open her eyes or talk to us. I would lay beside her and even though she was asleep I would talk to her and hold her hand. She would rub my hand as if she knew I was there.

The doctors met with my family and I and told us that there was nothing else they could do for her, her body had just given up its fight and the best thing for us to do was let her go. That day we took her off life support and I held her hand as she took her last breaths.

My mom, my best friend was just suddenly gone from my world, and this was something I just could not grasp. Till this day I still cry regularly, I miss her more than I can even explain. I had so many fears about my future without her. She wont be there to see me try on my wedding dress, or walk down the isle, or hold my baby and teach me how to be as good of a mom as she was. I guess I just needed to vent all of this out. What bothers me most is that I never got to say goodbye to her while she was still awake.

I am excited for my surgery, so excited. But also terrified at the same time. I guess I need to learn how to focus on the good things, and understand that no matter what she is still with me, even if it isnt physically.